Hi guys,
Today is a
sad day for me, I guess since 2015 every Nov 7th will be a sad day,
cause that day I had to make a really difficult choice and I will never forget
it.
But in
order to tell you about that day I think you may wanna now a bit of backup
story, so let’s go back in time to when I was a teenager.....
You may
already know how every single kid on the planet wants a dog (maybe some who are
scared of dogs don’t do but I have a friend that was scared of dogs until he
got one now they’re inseparables) but in
my case I guess it was more than just “want”. Being an only child can be boring
sometimes, all people with siblings complain about arguing but at least there
is always someone in the house to play with.
So it came
to September 2004 that something changed, a
friend of my parents had some puppies and asked if we wanted one, of course it
took me no time to say YES! But it
took me a little bit longer to convince my parents... or should I say parent? 😜 With dad as partner in crime we went to pick up
a little puppy while mom was at work (perfect crime... for a few hours, we’ll
figure out what to say to her later) and when we got there she still have two puppies
left a boy and a girl and I actually don’t remember, maybe don’t even know what
I choose her but it was love at first
sight 😍 but tell me who could not fall in
love with this pretty face?
And there
it she was really small in my hands, I had like five names even a fave one for
her in my mind but when my dad asked me “What’s the name?” the word just came
out without thinking... NUKA it felt right, it fit her and I
loved it I could see the surprise on my dad’s face, that name wants even on the
table. But it had to be Nuka, and from that day I knew we will be together
forever! Or that’s what I thought back then.
That first
day we arrived home and the very first thing she did when I put her on the
floor of my room was pee on the carpet!! I took her as fast as I could to the “pee-place”
and told her “I won’t say a thing if you promise to never do that again!” you
can call me crazy cause a month old dog may not understand that level of
blackmail but she actually never did it again so i guess it worked 😂
That moment
our journey together began, we shared room, she tried to steal my bed so many
times I can’t even count, went for so many long walks, play and watch TV together,
fight every bath time cause she really hated it, she loved her holidays at the
beach, she had her own pups once and we have 6 little crazy lads running in
home which was amazing, everything was great and years came along
But one day
right after she turned 10 years old I think was November 2014 something changed,
I notice something weird was happening and did some research, then went to the
vet to confirm my theory, and sadly I was right Nuka had DIABETES, so we took
blood samples every day for a week to stabilize the sugar in her system but I
guess I were a bit late cause she went blind suddenly, here we started the
fight.
Took her a
few weeks to get used to not see, pretty hard ones, many times hitting herself
with a door or a wall, I even had to put a bell on her necklace to be able to
know when she was on the move so I could follow and help her and if that wasn’t
enough we had the insulin injections twice a day 😱 as much as I have a huge needle fear how could I not do it?
With that dynamic
we made it through another year, my little girl made it to her 11th
Birthday!! Huge time, but again everything became more complicated after that.
She had
some X-Rays and there were many things going wrong, her heart and lungs were
too big, and the other organs were like out of place, she kept losing weight
till the point you could notice every bone in her body, had some breathing
problems and a terrible cough and everyday was getting worse. As she slept in
my room the less she sleeps the less I sleep too...
It wasn’t
right, it wasn’t fair, I could see she was suffering and so was I, always
worried, always alert, taking care of her day and night, didn’t have a proper
night of sleep in a long time and it started to pay back at me. I was on deny “she
will get better” I keep saying to myself “she will get better and I’m fine I
can take care of her as long as it takes” but none of it was true she wasn’t
getting better and we were both exhausted.
I cried my
eyes out for two days trying to both deny and accept the awful truth... I had to let her go, believe me that’s
one hell of a decision to make.
Wow, it’s
been a long ride, this post has been like a rollercoaster of emotions for me
but here we are finally, right were we started, one year ago, November 7th
2015
That
morning I took Nuka into my bed and hug her as hard as I could trying to make
that moment last forever, but it couldn’t, so my dad and I went to the vet to
put an end to her suffering. I don’t really know if it was some kind of faith
thing but the Vet’s dog died few days before that he was kind of the same age
as Nuka, so we actually could understand each other perfectly, (it’s been a
year and we can’t talk more than 5 min without remembering our dogs and getting
sentimental). He gave a sedative to sleep her before.... you know..... it was
both the fastest thing and the longest day of my life, I just still can feel
her in my arms slowly falling asleep, my eyes hurt of so many crying, and could
see huge sadness in my dad’s face and suddenly she was gone... And now it’s
been a year since that awful goodbye time really flies.
One thing is sure I will never forget you. I will
always love you Nuka! We’re N&N 🐶😍
I’ll come
back soon, hopefully with a happier story. See you soon.
Xoxo Gummy
Girl ❤
